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Aug. 14th, 2005 08:23 pmGaah. I'm soo wiped out from studying. Honestly, I never actually studies this much in my entire life! I read things before I enter lecture, try to read them after lecture, ask my parents about what they think about the lecture and then read again when the exam comes.
This is burning me out man! That coupled with the upcoming chemistry board exam has gotten me 100% fried. I think it's the oddest thing for someone who wants to be a doctor and have trouble with ANATOMY of all things. Especially Anatomy of the brain. Gaah. The entire trouble with anaatomy part stems from the fact that I am not a good.... um... spatial coordinates type of person.
I thought after getting through MATH I'd have better chances in life but NOOO, here comes anatomy. Sometimes I think that I over estimate my capabilities of learning. That especially since my parents have already noted that I'm too uhh.. condescending for my own good. Erg.
The thing is, I hate being treated like I went to my particular med school becuasae I had nowhere else to go. I guess it's the intellectual elitist in me (something which I dislike in my personality but is really hard to take out). The fortune teller waaaay back in high school was right, I'd get too full of myself because I graduated from UP.
Although, I must admit that graduating from UP must have taken down a few notches off of my pride. It makes me feel like I've graduated from the bottom ranks of my class because everyone I meet is a smart person. (Honestly the only type of person who'd talk about this thing is a green).
This is burning me out man! That coupled with the upcoming chemistry board exam has gotten me 100% fried. I think it's the oddest thing for someone who wants to be a doctor and have trouble with ANATOMY of all things. Especially Anatomy of the brain. Gaah. The entire trouble with anaatomy part stems from the fact that I am not a good.... um... spatial coordinates type of person.
I thought after getting through MATH I'd have better chances in life but NOOO, here comes anatomy. Sometimes I think that I over estimate my capabilities of learning. That especially since my parents have already noted that I'm too uhh.. condescending for my own good. Erg.
The thing is, I hate being treated like I went to my particular med school becuasae I had nowhere else to go. I guess it's the intellectual elitist in me (something which I dislike in my personality but is really hard to take out). The fortune teller waaaay back in high school was right, I'd get too full of myself because I graduated from UP.
Although, I must admit that graduating from UP must have taken down a few notches off of my pride. It makes me feel like I've graduated from the bottom ranks of my class because everyone I meet is a smart person. (Honestly the only type of person who'd talk about this thing is a green).
